from my ipod, a candid note

I'm pretty sure that I have moved on by now. Now in my heart, there are chambers overflowing with the freshness of new love. The kind of feeling I haven't felt in so long, the kind of feeling that gets your day going, the kind of happiness and the kind of joy you feel from your head to your toes from a day's encounter. Such nostalgic feelings, foreign yet familiar- they are finally back. But I know that being in love, together, would definitely result in thousand folds of joy to what I feel now.

There was one, the one that brought me out of a cycle of misery. It was short-lived to many stupid mistakes, true colours, and the simple reality that it was not possible. My own logic and intuition tell me that much, but it is such a shame. He was so perfect.

The other, I have only a few short months to bond and possibly fall in love with. A short love affair of the winter, coming to an end very soon because of distance, age, and everything in between. An experience I would give anything to be part of, but as I am jolted back to reality, I realize that the mere possibility is still uncertain. I say to let time, destiny, and fate do it's job. But would it hurt to push it a lil' bit? ;)

HEALTH:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is
manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy.
5. Make time to mediate.
6. (Breathe)

7. Read more books than you did in 2009.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minute walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

PERSONALITY:

11. Comparing our lives to others is fruitless. We have no idea what their journey is about.

12. Replace negative thoughts with positive ones especially about things out of our control. Invest energy in the positive present moment.
13. Try not to over do. Understand limits.
14. Why take ourselves so seriously. No one else does.
15. Gossip drains precious energy.
16. Dream more while we are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. We already have all we need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Let go of our partners mistakes of the past. Focus on our present/future happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

20. Make peace with our past so it won’t spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of our happiness except us.
22. Realize that life is a school and we are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons we learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. We don’t have to win arguments. It’s ok to agree to disagree.

SOCIETY:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is insignificant compared to what you think of yourself.
31. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends & family will. Stay in touch.

LIFE:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. (Higher powers) heal everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how we feel, get up, dress up, and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When we awake alive in the morning, be thankful.
39. Our Inner most is always happy. Release your “Inner Happy” on the world every day!

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first post of the new year!
one more thing to add to my list of things to do before i die:
be kissed at the stroke of midnight at new years :)

2009 was a year of learning. of maturing. and most importantly, a year of tripping over obstacles but having the courage to get up afterwards. i've finally received closure, the huge leap has been taken, and now .. it's just time to live and slowly bring my new self out. the awkward years are almost over, it's time to really live, experience, and build the foundations.

happy new years !

resolutions part two (after a feast slash 7 course meal cooked by yours truly and 15 minutes before a new start).

1) maintain 90 + average
2) dsac/ymca/rink guard JOB YES PLEASE.
3) shad valley. nag them. if not; uofwaterloo
4) psat, sat.
5) research options for uni; usa and canada
6) approach teachers for help more, show more initiative.
7) become more open-minded, broad, well-spoken, and insightful. especially towards meeting new people.
8) read more books of expanding variety. fiction. bio. non-fiction. texts.
9) meet new people. new friends. new connections.
10) control materialistic needs. stop conforming to everyone else.
11) get driver's license on birthday. reduces insurance costs :)

1) drink at least 8 glasses of water a day
2) try to swim, do calf exercises, crunches, every day.
3) do not skip facial routine at night and morning. buy masks.
4) sleep before 10:30pm
5) good poop = good digestion = good overall health
6) FLOSS. damn braces.
7) Facial/Eyebrow reshaping/Take care of hair, arms, legs, and feet.

./end taking care of myself.
the other shit comes later.

back from nyc :)
nyc haul

not in any particular order- Levis: black and blue skinnies. OPI- metro chic. JCrew-Tee. Banana Republic-puff sleeve cardigan. Tommy Hilfiger-White beanie. Hunter-Black/Red stripped rainboots. BCBG-Ankle boots<3. Converse- chucks.

new york city. the city of all worlds.
technically, today was the first full day here.
the areas outside of manhatten are incomparable with manhatten itself; which i will be laying my eyes on tommorow. overall, the trip was pretty smooth-- with the exception of a major snowstorm at the later half of the trip. shopping at the outlet mall(s) was amazing; so many good deals, except there wasn't enough time to stop by AND my mom's major retarded "standards". Anyhow, settling down.. tommorow's the big day! i can't wait. picture snap snap heh

soon-to-be sixteen in toronto. likes euphoria, photography, dreams, controversy, spasms, beautiful worlds, neon colours, athletes and athletics, everlasting love, real life fairy tale endings, thoughts, vintage, reminiscence, nostalgic feelings, hope.

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