so much more convenient. make the change!

“I want somebody to sleep with me, and just sleep. Someone to cuddle up with during a movie, on a couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in the woods together. Challenge me, let me challenge him. Talk about dreams, and make dreams. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you’re having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes and not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think “this might make my girl smile” as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he’s got.”

-lindat

moleskine?

I am 5’4 or shorter.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different colour.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I’ve had braces.
I wear glasses.
I’d get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.


Family/Home Life:
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I’ve lost a child.

Embarrassment:
I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve snorted while laughing.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I’ve had stitches.
I’ve broken a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed. (adenoids, same difference)
I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had surgery.
I’ve had chicken pox.

Traveling:
I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
I’ve been to Canada.
I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
I’ve been to Japan.
I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I’ve been to Spain.
I’ve been to Africa.
I’ve been to France.

Experiences:
I’ve been lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve been to a casino.
I’ve been skydiving.
I’ve gone skinny dipping.
I’ve played spin the bottle.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a play.
I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
I’ve played chicken.
I’ve played a prank on someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.
I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I’ve eaten Sushi.
I’ve been snowboarding.

Relationships:
I’m single.
I’m in a relationship.
I’m available.
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’ve gone on a blind date.
I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I’ve been divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:
I’ve had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I’ve kissed a member of the same gender.
I’ve had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve had sex outdoors.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/Crime:
I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve run a red light.
I’ve been suspended from school.
I’ve witnessed a crime.
I’ve been in a fist fight.
I’ve been arrested.
I’ve shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol:
I’ve consumed alcohol.
I’ve smoked a cigarette.
I(‘ve) smoke(d) pot.
I regularly drink.
I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
I’ve done hard drugs.
I’ve been addicted to an illegal drug

oh yes. my life.

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ten things geminis hate


People without a sense of humor
Not constantly being the center of attention
Broken clocks and watches
Bad wine
Shoes that you can't dance in
People who talk slowly
People that walk too slow
Pessimistic individuals
Addicted people
Broken technology

big changes are ahead. (if i get the thumbs up from momma and papa)

it's time to turn over a new leaf and stop being such a kid. outer appearance. small to drastic changes.

-haircut with more layering and fuller bangs http://lookbook.nu/look/242872-I-Don-t-Care

-highlights or dyed hair. highlights like above or the entire a dark chocolate brown.

-ear pierced.

-manicure. facial. maintenance shit.

-purchase a straightener/curler.


yupyup. hopefully if these "proposals" are approved, you'll see a different me. something that reflects in the inner changes thus far. idunno. i just want a change.

i like making them lists. they keep me organized on track and always striving to be better. maybe.

first/second major test period is over. i'm healthy once again and i had the time of my life in montreal. what's left? trudging through the simplistic routines of daily life, trying to find sparks of inspiration and love to last me through. taking in the small details we take for granted and enjoying the ability to be a child with light consequences. we can't step back into the strands of time, so it's best to live in the now.

i leave you with that my friends, whilst i finish up my daily routines.

p.s.
to my two friends struggling to find the answer to an non-existant question... grab at your chances kiddos. to him, i say to look past the risks and fear and go for the gold. to her, i say to let down her shield to love and let him make you the happiest girl in the world. once you've experienced love, you will never go back again.

Labels: living in the now

for a friend,

listen kiddo
you gotta treasure it this time. you lost it once, don't let it get away this time. if he gets the courage to say something, my god you better not say no. i'm not even sure if you still have a chance, but it's most probably that you do.. and you must take that chance.

you and me and everyone else knows that you guys are perfect.
stop denying it. and let him through. help him in getting through to you.

game of tug-o-war is over kids. it's now or never.

xmas is coming up. break is coming up. tests are wrapping up. midterms. piano exam. giftwrapping. cascavacade of lights. cpr-c workshops. gibson house volunteering. ymca apps. dsac apps. skating rink apps. shopping for improvements. nails. brows. straightener. haircut. gaming. presents. parties.

a typical life?

what you want, i can never give.
what i want, you will never give.
that's why .. i'm letting go.

i wish you all the best, really. it's too bad. it's too sad.
i've learned, and you've helped me become better.
now, please leave me still so i can slowly erase the painful memories.



let me take the dusty old clock from the attic, and start time again. it's about time.

soon-to-be sixteen in toronto. likes euphoria, photography, dreams, controversy, spasms, beautiful worlds, neon colours, athletes and athletics, everlasting love, real life fairy tale endings, thoughts, vintage, reminiscence, nostalgic feelings, hope.

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